||[Nov. 5th, 2004|11:15 pm]
chunks of crunk
|[||How I'm Feeling..
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life - im still on my medication for my allergies, the doctors told me to keep a log of how my condition is going so that they can detect the problems before its too late,so far nothings shown up...but i cant soley rely on this medication to keep me well, and if i do..ill probably be sleeping for most of the day, my parents are leaving this thursday to go back home to Australia, thier vacation went by so fast i don't know if i'll be able to handle it, i don't know when i'll be going back home since i'm living here and all, but i'd really like to go back to say goodbye to everyone officially, i really miss my friends back home and its not the same. my brother is planning on leaving on Friday, he says early morning about 7 o'clock, i highly disagree on that assumption, maybe he's actually going to do it, my parents really want him home too, since they've seen him here. I, on the other hand, don't want any of my family to leave, i got used to my mom's cooking and my dad's talks so quick that i might get withdrawal symptoms and then might have to take medication for that, basically i'm going to be letting go of alot of things, no jobs or anything like that but people, and these people mean more to me than anything, and for those who think i've let go?..your just not holding on tight enough...and i wish you would. I'm starting to prep up for school, i have to go down to the school to get some more information on the subjects i'm going to be taking, i'm going to take this school thing slow but seriously, i'd rather know the information well over time than try to cram it all in my brain all at once and then forget, i hope it works out. my life is pretty mediocre, i'm not pleased about most things but i'm trying my hardest not to be depressed about it and if i let it get to me, it makes my condition worse and i don't want that one bit.
love - if its any consolation jessie, i'd really like for us to be friends, i know that i'm so far away and it would probably be a one in a billion trillion million chance that i'd ever be with you but i really want to be your friend, best friend if u have the patience..but yeah i got worried that you didnt want to "keep in touch" anymore, i didnt want to say anything or do anything just in case you got the wrong idea but yeah i didnt know wether you were just busy or not...i don't want you to think the wrong things about me but i'd just like us to be friends cuz i always care about what your doing and when i dont hear from you, it makes me think im not wanted, so please let me know if i'm still wanted, i'm sending you a bunch a letters soon, you dont have to reply back but i just hope you appreciate it, i love you bubs...and i miss you too
work - i still work at Sam's but they cut my hours alot this past week, they probably saw how much im making cuz i work so hard and they decided to cut it, big deal Mr. Sam's Club, i got another jobs at Jamba Juice and although their pay is not the best, it's still money and it can be spent too. yesterday i had a one on one meeting with my boss JB, i told him about my situation with my condition and how i'm really stressed out about a whole bunch of stuff and he was really understanding about it, and he said that he would work around my schedule so i wouldn't have to worry anymore, he also told me there is a meeting at his house this sunday and after we are having a party after, and some people are even crashing at his house cuz he lives in this place called Kaneohe, which is like rainforest and everything is lush and green on that side and he sed that we might hike or go to the beach, so i cant wait, and it'll also be a comeback for me and i can get to see everyone again.
so there is a rundown of my situation at the moment, nothing fascinating but hopefully informative.